Why?

What a day.
It started out so wonderfully. The boys let me sleep till 7:40 a.m.! And Ellie didn't want out a minute before that. :)
I drank coffee. The boys played and watched cartoons. Camden even read the paper with me. Then we went to Target where we had lunch (hot dogs and salad) and came home where Benjy had a nap while Camden played in our dusting of snow. All was well. I created, working on my Christmas journal a bit. Camden played Star Wars, making cool light sabers with the Duplo Legos. Benjy woke up happy and ready to "talk" about Star Wars. Then, suddenly, after baths and before dinner, I lost it. I just flipped. I couldn't help it, but every little noise just set me off. Every little fuss from Benjamin. Every little silly sound from Camden. Every little thing I couldn't control just set me on the end of my nerves. I just lost it. I cried and cried. The heavy sobbing kind of cry. I lost it. Camden said he knew what would help, and he hugged me. He got up from his chair and said, "I know what would help you feel better." It was such a beautiful hug. Just the thing you would do to help someone in need. That really turned it around for me. Camden truly knows how to comfort people. He may act like an insane clown sometimes. But he knows. He knows how to love. I love my family, and I am so thankful for them. :) Thanks be to God.

Camden - "I love you way way way way way way way way way past all the moons, past past past past past past past past the suns, past the asteroid belts, past the planets. to infinity and beyond!

Mom - "I love you more than that!

Camden - "I love YOU more than that!

Mom - "ditto"
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